I've always chosen to do easy things in which I knew I could succeed. I've always hated disappointment, failure, and coming in second to my own personal best. I'm a hard worker and have in the past always attributed my success both to my work and to my intelligence. I've always considered myself smart.
Now, all that is turned upside down. I am no longer the best or the most learned. Not only is my foolish pride set on display for all to see, but I also realize, now that I am faced with something I cannot easily achieve or conquer, that none of those successes were mine at all. Not only are earthly accomplishments meaningless, but I cannot even take credit for them. Not for my intellect, talent, skill, knowledge, or abilities. It is all His and by His grace and nothing less. To Him be the glory.
And so it now becomes clear: first, that the pursuit of holiness is not something for which I can have a natural aptitude. It is a lifelong lesson which I must practice. But I do not run this course alone. Just as my God has given me all those other gifts and graces, so will He continue to help me and guide me into holiness. For how could He expect me to learn it on my own? He knows that without Him we are incapable of anything. He is not only happy to see me asking for His help, but He is indeed running towards me as I run towards Him, for this is His greatest desire! That I be one with Him in all things.
Jesus, I accept that I am nothing without You. Be patient with me, O Lord. Make me into the servant You have called me to be.
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